Domestic Abuse

Today I'm going to touch on a much more serious subject from my usual posts. 

This post is coming with a trigger/content warning: ⚠️ * assault/manipulation/abuse * ⚠️  

"Yes he makes you cry sometimes, but there are really good times too. 

Sometimes he can be scary, but he loves you so much. 

He can be violent on occasion, but it’s only because you upset him. 

He can make you feel worthless but he’s so charming. 

You’ve thought about leaving, but he knows all the right things to win you back. 

It’s all going to be okay, right? He wouldn’t actually do anything, right? 

Right? 

1-800-799-SAFE  

https://www.thehotline.org "

I don't talk about it but I am a survivor of domestic abuse. 

This guy I dated before I met my husband. 

He was very handsome and people were always quick to tell me how lucky I was. He would do the social media posts about me being his "woman crush wednesday" or gushing about me in a post. 

I really thought he was it for me... 

Then he became a bit possessive and controlling. It didn't seem like a huge deal I just thought he must really think I'm something special that he is worried about losing me. 

That was how it started, that is how I began excuses for his poor behavior. 

New beginnings

 Good day folks,

I've accepted a new job that I am very excited about. It feels right. I'm excited about what I am doing. 

Kyle, Ava and I have been just having fun weekends together this summer. It's been such a blessing to have been able to be home with her for the last year. She is wild, sweet and fiesty all at the same time. 

We got to go to the Garlyn Zoo this summer. We got to do several picnics and BBQ's with family. We have spent a lot of time with Nana. We got to cross the Canadian border to see grandpa Don and Grandma Barb. That was very special and I can't wait to be able to do that more frequently. It had been particularly difficult because everything shut down in March 2020 when Ava was 8 months old. They couldn't see her on her first or second birthday or watch her grow and change every day. She took to my dad so quickly it just made my heart overflow.

Kyle and I celebrated our 5 year wedding anniversary this year. I am so blessed to have such a great person to spend my life with and raise children with. He really amazes me everyday at what a fantastic human he is. We have both grown so much since we started dating in 2012.  We have gone through some ups and downs but I'm glad we overcame it all. He is my person.

We refinanced our house this summer for a lower rate. (Because why not?) We bought me a new (to me) car. We sold my old 4Runner because as spacious as it was, when you're toting strollers, stuffed animals, wagons and a diaper bag it's amazing how cramped it felt. 

I accepted a job as an administrative assistant. My boss is amazing so far, I've gotten an opportunity to see her in action. It was an amazing experience to see a woman lead with such power and grace. Very much girl power. 

Hope you all are well and that you've had the best summer adventures. 

Oh my

 I've got some big things in the work. 

As new as it is, it's still sort of in my lane.

All will be explained eventually.

 Hello my friends, it has been far far too long and I sincerely apologize for my absence. 

Motherhood has been an adventure that I simply was overwhelmed by. Everything is so lonely, exhilarating, wonderful, terrifying and joyous all at the exact same time.

 

I can tell you for certain I won't be posting as much fashion related content as before but I still intend to try to keep that in my repertoire but as a parent there are so many things I want to share and hear about your experiences.

Good day to you.

Good morning!

There is so much to update you on.

We bought a house. A lovely 3 bedroom, 2 bath, with 2 city lots! The house is a two story with lots of great original woodwork, french doors leading into our living room, it was newly carpeted and painted. The bedrooms are a bit smalled than we are used to, but we get so much extra stuff it's totally worth it.
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11:41pm we welcomed our princess Avolet Grace into this world. She was 9 pounds 6 ounces and 21 and 1/4 long. She came via C-Section. I was contracting all day, and spent HOURS with 7 minute apart contractions (because I was not going in until they were 5 minutes apart) they suddenly went to 2 minutes apart but I was just no where near dialted enough. She was so big she would have had to come C Section anyway, so I am glad I made the choice to do a C Section at that moment.

That is the newest of news. I am really going to try to post more regularly. I've missed the self expression for sure.

Happy Monday! Sorry I have dropped off the face of the planet. It's been a bit wild since my last post in August.

Happy Thursday my loves!
I'm sorry I have been away. Monday was my wedding anniversary. Things got hectic. Kyle starts his new job at a local pizza joint today!
Last night we took a boat cruise with my work.
It was so beautiful.